Every one of us are prone to mistakes - no matter how good our heart is. And the thing about meeting Jesus for real, is that all of the sudden you have this perfect love working inside of you. From one moment to the next you have this amazing hope that you've never experienced before, joy unspeakable and full of God's presence. You have a model of perfection and love and captivating beauty in front of you and around you and intimately involved in your life. YOU CANNOT HELP but to want to be perfect because all the sudden you are introduced to perfection - JESUS!
Yet often we find our ourselves continually falling short of the perfection we've set in our minds to attain.
Enter Peter - a few days before Jesus was crucified in Luke 22:31-34 - Jesus says...
31 “Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, 32 but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.” 33 Peter said to him, “Lord, I am ready to go with you both to prison and to death.” 34 Jesus said, “I tell you, Peter, the rooster will not crow this day, until you deny three times that you know me.”
Let's break down the above scripture:
verse 31 - Satan is is after Peter - doesn't like him - doesn't like the potential in him - and sees all his areas of arrogance and pride - demands that Jesus let him at Peter (sounds awfully similar to Satan's request to sift Job - see Job 1 in the Old Testament)
verse 32 - Jesus tells Peter that when 'he returns' or comes back to Him - to strengthen his brothers - the beginning of the church
verse 33 - Peter tells Jesus that He's crazy and he'd never, ever deny Him, but is ready to die with Jesus if need be
verse 34 - Jesus tells Peter he will deny Him, and soon - before the rooster crows (before the next morning!)
Allow me to wrap this up with a single paragraph while yelling at you...
JESUS KNOWS YOU AND HE KNOWS YOU WANT TO DO AMAZINGLY GOOD AND GREAT AND AWESOME THINGS! AND AS LONG AS YOU KEEP YIELDING YOUR LIFE TO HIM YOU WILL! SO WHEN YOU FAIL KNOW THAT JESUS SAW YOUR FAILURE BEFORE YOU FAILED - SO LEARN FROM YOUR FAILURE AND LEVERAGE YOUR SPIRITUAL WALK FROM THE EXPERIENCE YOU GAIN TO PROPEL YOURSELF EVEN HIGHER!!! phew...! that's a mouth full! :D
Keep going! Keep going! Keep learning! Keep growing! When you're not perfect, learn and let it propel you forward!
ps. don't ever go backwards! That's what the devil wants you to do - it's never, ever, ever God will!