Here is without a doubt one of the subjects that will come up with the on-fire Christian believing believer who desires to follow God with all their heart: What do I do when I miss it - fail - drop the ball - screw it up - etc, etc, etc... I remember one time maybe 6 years ago, I was about 20 or 21 at the time I think and I had just dropped the ball BIG TIME! To this day I can't remember what I did wrong, but it must have been absolutely massive because I was feeling very down about it. I was driving and sulking at what a dismal failure I was, then the voice of God rang in and He asked me a 'sly' question (if God is capable of slyness He was about to max Himself out!)
"Son, who are the most successful people in the world", God said to me.
I replied remorsefully, "Probably those who never screw anything up!"
He then kindly retorted, "No son. The most successful people in the world are those who screw up the most, because they are recipients of the most grace."
Then me, "... but... wow... (revelation hitting me)... THANK YOU JESUS!"
Now, let me qualify this. There are two primary ways to screw up. We either are going for it with all our hearts and are facing things that are challenging, causing us to 'struggle the right way' and grow and learn and fall and get back up and keep going forward! Or we sin willingly and purposefully. I am exclusively talking about the former in this blog post, but even the later can prove to be enlightening, if it is faced with honest, genuine repentance and a changed heart.
Because the truth is that people who are not moving forward are not receiving his grace. Grace is the stuff that changes and empowers people eh! Not the stuff that just covers up sin till we meet Jesus in the 'sweet by an by' - that 'stuff' doesn't exist. That's called a lie!
But back to my story - The truth hit me like a tonne of bricks, and that truth has continued to be a keynote revelation in my life that continues to grow to this very day! Because the fact of the matter is this: even on my best day, when I do everything right, sometimes in the back of my 'knower' I still feel like there was more. I seem to always possess the capacity to get sharper, shine brighter, do more, etc. But then even on my 'worst' day, when I feel like a failure, I know God is cheering me on, "MY SON, I KNOW YOU ARE TRYING! I KNOW YOU DROPPED THE BALL, BUT I HAVE MORE MERCY AND GRACE FOR YOU. I WANT TO CONTINUE TO CHANGE YOU!"
Thank God for that!
His grace qualifies us all to be history makers. All I need to do is continue to 'go forward' with all my heart into his perfect will, as Paul said,
13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us (Paul @ Philippians 3:13,14) New Living Translation